Distractedness

In this time of what feels like selfishness, my priorities SEEM all out of whack!  For years, I have poured countless hours into furthering my education and preparing lesson plans and activities for my students for the upcoming week.  As of Feb. 2013, I will have finally reached my goal of an Ed.S. degree and will say goodbye to the level of rigor that accompanies graduate level work.  It will ultimately play out in the real classroom where future students will experience all that I have to expose them to; my "toolbox" will be full!  Although, learning will never stop, I am looking forward to more of a laid back "off" time from work.  All of this seems normal for professional level souls that seek to better themselves with an education, however, I have a husband and 3 small children at home that would love to see me OFF the computer!  I know what kind of mother/wife I aspire to be!  I have lots of ideas that I want to do with my own children to allow them to SEE the world without having to leave town.  I know my husband would love for me to just curl up on the couch to watch a movie and enjoy some down time. 
These last few years of constantly worrying about my studies or getting behind and sitting for hours at a time to get caught up have gone by without the opportunity to get that time back with my babies!  God is good and He has placed SOOO many great people in our lives that have picked up where I was not always present.  With my 8 year old accepting Jesus and being baptized reminded me that these early years are so impressionable and I matter in their lives!  I want to be an ever PRESENT mommy...a mommy that ALWAYS has time to listen to what they have to say, even if it is the third time...a mommy that teaches them important life skills through doing various things...a mommy that finds value in SHOWING them everything...a mommy that has the patience of Job! 
In today's world, it is so easy to become distracted with everything, especially when you suffer from procrastinationitis!!!  However, I will not allow my children to remember me as being distracted to do what is right by them!   They matter to me and I haven't been able to show them that with undisputable evidence!  Come on Feb. '13!!!!